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I think I need to have my wisdom tooth taken out cos it's growing in an angular fashion and pushing against my last molar.. the gum above it is slightly swollen and sore.. so I guess that isn't a good sign. *whimpers* they say wisdom teeth cause problems because our jaws become smaller with evolution, and as we do not eat food that wear out our teeth so much now, our jaws are evolved into smaller ones.. if that's the case, why can't the damn wisdom teeth just stop growing? Why must we go through the suffering of having our gum sliced and the teeth disected so they can be removed??? *whines*

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I feel like I am a yo-yo and my string's tied to Jeroen's finger cos he can make me feel up or down with his actions. I think that's not good, so I am trying not to be so controlled by my feelings for him. *nods firmly*I got my webcam installed!! Yipeeeeeeee!!! ;)

He doe...

He doesn't love me, it shows obviously. Hate him. How could he switch off so fast.. maybe it was just all fake.

New...

New scary word : LindaUh-huh.. that's Jeroen's long time friend on the net, and they had this thing going on for a while back recently, which he says was over but that he didn't have the heart to tell her that he didn't want to continue anymore because she was the kind that was feeling depressed and sucidal. Anyway it IS now over between them, and they are back as just friends... I'm just wondering, what if she visits him one day, and they decide to "try it out"? Jeroen says that's almost impossible, but you can never know, can you?Besides, they have been friends for 4 years, and I only knew him for a couple of months.. where do I stand? What if one day she decides she cannot be friends with him unless they are together? Would he choose to be with a friend that stayed with him for 4 years over me?He got frustrated the other day because I brought her up again... later when we both chilled out some, he told me he only got so mad because he felt I was trying to find a reason to end the relationship with him, and he's afraid of that happening. I guess in a way I was trying to make it happen, so I can turn around and say "See I knew that was going to happen!". I guess that's really screwed of me. Maybe we are both scared of screwing this relationship up.It's the way he seems to care alot about how things are going to affect this relationship that touched me. He declared the Marco Polo restaurant in Amsterdam "our place" because we both had a good time when we dined there, and that 7th April is our official anniversary date. How many guys will bother with things like that without prompting from their girlfriends? He's so special that I am afraid he's not for real.I feel so blessed each day knowing that he's mine.Let's just pray I don't screw it all up.

Final...

Finally had a talk with Jeroen. He says he loves me!! I don't know what else to write.. I'm just in pure joy. We both know we are going to be apart, but both wants to try it out at least. He says he has no problem with commitment at all..I'm in a state of disbelief still.. maybe I will believe it when I hear him say it to me face to face. *sighs happily*

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eeeksI have the same problem now... I can't see anything being updated after the 20th entry!!

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It snowed... I can't believe it. I woke up real cold and went to the bathroom, then I washed my hands and the water was freezing because it wasn't warmed up yet. And I was bitching to myself about the cold, thinking bitterly that I won't be surprised if it's snowing, and looked out of the window. SNOW. Everything was covered in a layer of it.I tell you, weather hates me. It does everything to make me miserable *sniffles*

You know I st...

You know I still can't get over how anyone, especially his last gf, would let go of someone as sweet and special as Jeroen. Amazing.And I am thinking everyday to myself what good timing I have, or else he would surely have been snapped up soon by someone else.

Extr...

Extract from online weather service:... Freeze Warning For Tonight Remains IN Effect... Cold Canadian Air Will Continue To Push Into The Ohio Valley Overnight. Temperatures Will Drop Into The Lower 30s Tonight... Bloody heck!!! I am gonna wear my sweaters and jeans to sleep or something. *whines* last week they had LOVELY weather, and this week, because I am here, the temperature is gonna go to freezing point!?!??!?! You might as well snow me in!! Geez.. I told ya therez a conspiracy!! I am getting goosebumps as I type too *whines some more*

Ohio just ...

Ohio just turned cold.I miss Jeroen *sobs*.. I feel cold without him to snuggle up to. Lauren (Jennifer's little girl) loves to snuggle up to me, and I felt a little sad cos with Lauren I am the "bigger" half, the one thatz taking care of the other, but I wanna be with Jeroen because with him he's the bigger half, the one babying me. I don't wanna baby someone.. I wanna be babied! *pouts*We went visiting Jen's grandparents and Joe's parents todya cos it was Easter. They were really nice people. Jen's mom taught me how to make deviled eggs.. yummy! Gonna make some for my honey when I get back to Holland. I also planned to buy some instant noodles and other stuff to buy back so I won't starve there or anything.. can you imagine their pizza delivery in Holland starts at 4pm?!?!? Hello?? Not all lazy people wakes up after 4 ya know? I definitely need to buy food for the flight back home to cos the bloody airline food that NW serves is SUCKY!! I mean, seriously!! They serve ya VEGETARIAN pizza and slimey curry with vegetables that you couldn't distinguish on the flight coming to Ohio.. I am just dying with excitement to see what they will serve going back to Amsterdam.My sweetie's so nice.. he promised to stay up all night cos he knows he wont be able to wake up before 7am if he were to sleep cos my flight's arriving at 7.20am. He swears I am trying to kill him or something :P since I changed from a 11.20am arrival time flight to a 7.20am one.. He knows though I changed my flight so I can see him sooner and spend more time with him so he didn't really complain, knowing if he did I would get sensitive and accuse him of not wanting to see me :P Hez pretty smart for a guy. *grins*Tomorrow he will be back in Holland from Spain, so maybe I will be able to catch him online more. Caught him online today for a while.. was so happy. He was tired because the sun was making him lazy and sleepy and he went for a siesta soon after.. but it still made me happy to talk to him for a bit.Tomorrow we are going to the zoo, Jen, Joe, the kids and I. I hope we get some nice pictures. Should be fun.. hopefully Lauren will be in a good mood so she doesn't get all cranky and starts screaming (will probably scare all the animals off). Then we are gonna come back and order pizza and just pig out *beams* I think I am gonna put on weight before going back to Holland.. but thatz okie, just have to get Jeroen to help me get more "exercise" done *evil grin*.Tuesday I will cook for the family.. gotta check the damn bak kut teh thingy and see what I need to buy cos we will have to go to the store to get my food supply and the ingredients for the thing I am gonna cook for them. Maybe we can bring some over to Jen's grandparents... they were really nice :)Wed I go back to Holland!!!!! Back into my baby's arms!! For some reason I keep getting this image of him meeting me at the airport with a girl and saying that this was his last gf and he decided to get back together with her, or he met some girl in Spain and brought her back to Holland to live happily ever after with him. I think I AM being paranoid.The thing with the ex-gf.. he and her officially broke up like a week before I got there. Before that she went to Sweden for studies I think and they kept up a long-distance thingy but then she decided to end it. I dunno if he was ok about it all along or was he on some rebound or is he just looking for some comfort in somebody? Cos before they were officially off he told me about her and said that he wouldnt cheat on her or anything even though they weren't like really together already because he would feel weird about it. Maybe this is also why I am so doubtful about his feelings, because he seems to be a faithful person and he seemed to care about that relationship but it didnt end long before we met, and I don't know if I meant anything to him at all. I don't know either if I should ask him about it. I do care about him alot but I don't want to push him off or anything and I don't want to assume anything either. Argh.Whatever it is I am gonna cherish the 5 days I will have with him and make sure they are happy memorable ones because he's definitely the most wonderful guy I know.

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Sometimes I think men have this time-bomb thing built inside them that goes off when they hear the phrase "I love you". Maybe itz just me but thatz how I feel.I'm definitely very very fond of Jeroen but I don't know where things are going. He said something one night about how he seems to keep getting involved into long-distance relationships... I wonder if that means hez finding himself into a relationship with me? *hopes* The things he said, they set my heart going pitter-patter. Once he was getting a little frustrated 'cos he could tell I felt he was just toying with me, or just having a fling, and he said very seriously that I need to trust him on that when he says something, he means it. He added too that he never plays with anyone's feelings and he doesn't fake his feelings either.Just the night before I left for Cincinnati he said "You have no idea how special you are to me."I'm really not sure about his feelings on this but I know I really really would like to see the two of us getting somewhere.The night before I left for Ohio, I went to Den Haag to get my air tickets from David and I was stuck there cos there was no trains going back to Rotterdam from Den Haag (damn strike AGAIN!!!!), and David told me there was a bus going back to Rotterdam, so I thought I would be fine. The bus was scheduled at 2355 and David's bus came first so I told him to go ahead and that I would be fine. Unfortunately it turned out that the blasted bus was going THE OTHER WAY, away from Rotterdam!!!I called Jeroen and he fels to bad about it.. he wanted to come over to Den Haag to get me and I told him not to, cos that would mean he had to get a cab and it will probably make him broke. He sounded so sorry and kept apologising for not coming with me (he was lazy and didn't want to come with me since he knew I knew how to get around between his place and Den Haag train station but he forgot that there was going to be a strike).Luckily there was this train going to Rotterdam and he promised to be at the station to wait for me. Then I met this Greek guy who was visiting his brother in Holland and he won't leave me alone. Came and sat beside me on the train and he was sitting sooooo damn close his leg was resting against mine. I didn't wanna be rude or anything, or acted like he was trying to molest me on purpose, so I didn't say anything. He talked to me some and asked me where I came from, what I was doing in Holland and if I have a phone number there (I think he was trying to pick me up) etc etc.Luckily Jeroen was waiting for me at the station as promised so I waved Mr Greek byebye and went over to my sweetie. He was so sweet, hugged me and snuggled with me and apologized again for not going with me to Den Haag even though it really was my fault for procastinating the trip. Love it when he does that nose-rubbing nuzzling thing with me. *melts*The next day, which was the day I left for Ohio, I was really pissed because he couldn't get up, and I thought I was going to have to go to the airport by myself, and I didn't want to cos he promised he would go with me. I didn't want to leave with him sleeping and feeling alone going off.. and I know he was really really tired and I was really frustrated about it. We got into some kinda temper-fight with each other when he finally woke up. I was crying and he hugged me tight and asked me what was wrong, but I was so mad I didn't want to talk to him. He got really frustrated because he couldn't understand why I was so upset so he kinda lost his temper and ignored me for a while.Finally, I talked to him and told him I was pissed because he promised to go to the airport with me and it seems like he couldn't make it and I can't change my flight cos of some ticket limitation, which means if I missed this flight I can't go to Ohio anymore. He started to go back into the room to get packed and I was like "no I don't want you to go with me if you don't want to, I don't want you to do it cos you are forced" and he kinda held me by the shoulders very very gently and said that he wanted to do it, because he would like to be able to say bye to me at the airport instead of having me go alone. Then he held me and kissed my hair and told me he was sorry that he almost screwed it up. I started crying again because that was probably the sweetest thing I ever heard from a guy.We made it to the airport on time, and I kissed him byebye and he promised he won't flirt with anyone while he was in Spain because he already had me and that was all he needed. I threatened to give him a hickey before to warn the girls that he was taken and he told me he doesn't need a hickey to remember that he was already taken. He also said once before, to my new teddy bear (no hez not crazy.. I will explain about the bear some time later), that I belong to him. It was probably something that he said without thinking, but you know how I am.. it's something that I will ponder over and think about for a long time.I'm confused. I wish I could read his mind. Missed him. He calls me "my lil' freezer" because he is my "lil personal heater" He said he missed me :) Good sign, I think.

Madurodam, ...

Madurodam, thatz what it is... it has all the famous sights of Holland in minature replicas. I have pictures!! :)

Jero...

Jeroen and I started holding hands walking around when we go out. He has nice warm big hands and his coat has big pockets that fit both our hands together in them as we stroll around in the cold at the whateveryoucallitplace. I'll find the name and fill it in some time later, can't spell the blasted thing now.Maybe I am biased but I think hez soooo cute.

Jeroen'...

Jeroen's birthday! Happy Birthday! We went to visit David's mom.. she's pretty sweet, and funny to talk to. Kinda funny that David turns out so shy and strange in a way?She bought us Holland chocolates awwww!! *beams* it even has a tile with a picture of a windmill!Got my air tickets to Cincinnati too.. had to change my flight back to Singapore for that, which means I have to go back straight to work on the day I return *groans* I guess I will most likely end up getting a MC for it.The thing with Jeroen is, the longer you look at him and spend time with him, the cuter and nicer you find him. We had dinner.. I wanted to go somewhere nice for dinner but it was pretty late by the time we met up with him (no thanks to the bloody strike on the Dutch railway) so we had to settle for some slimey snack bar food.After that, we went to this bar and had some drinks.. pretty nice bar, but bloody cold weather. So Michelle order some alcoholic drink since it was so cold outside... I told Jeroen to get her bailey's but he screwed up the order :P and got her barcardi breezer instead.. duh. We let Michelle take a puff of smoke and she did the thing that first timers always do, hold the smoke in the mouth and blow it out again. Which is good for her that shez such a failure at that, rofl.We walked back to the car, and it was even more bloody cold than I remembered. My cheeks and hands were all cold by the time we got into the car. Jeroen let me snuggle up with him and warmed my hands up with his, which was very nice and kinda like rested his chin on my head.. very cosy ;) *beams* There is actually a good thing about the cold I guess *giggles*He stayed over at the hotel cos it was so late and the trains weren't running properly, so it was easier to stay over, which he did. We called Gwyndolyn up on my handphone (geez I cant wait to see the bill) and then went to sleep. He slept on the floor, which was cold, so I gave him my covers, but it turned cold in the middle of the night (seems the Dutch have a habit of switching the heat off at some point because they assume you will be nice and cosy under the covers by then) so I kinda woke up cold. We fought a while over the covers, trying to make the other take it before we finally gave up and fell asleep again.

The flight to...

The flight to Amsterdam was pretty nice, not much turbulence cos the damn plane was so full. Michelle finds it hard to sleep cos it's so crammed and shez not even 5 feet.. can you imagine all these big Dutch people trying to get comfortable? I felt sorry for this big Dutch man seated across the aisle from me. The lady in front of him had her seat reclined all the way back that he didn't have any place to put his legs comfortably, had to like squash them right down to stretch them out more. I felt so bad for him :(Had a horrible headache at the start of the flight and wanted to take my medication and sleep but they were sooooo slow in serving the food.. *sighs* And after eating, I didn't have water anymore, so I tried pressing the call button to get someone to bring me a cup of it, but nobody came.. finally I got really pissed and went to get it for myself. The guy who gave me the water said that wasn't his area that I was sitting at, so he didn't come and serve me. I am like, duh, what kinda bloody service is this!?!? No wonder MH isn't as good as SQ. But the stewardess who was supposed to serve me came back to me and apologized for not coming because the light didn't go on above my head so she couldn't tell who it was that called. She was pretty nice about it (and I was partly sedated from the medication) so I just let it go. (yes I was mentally writing a letter of complaint all this while)Holland is cold. And annoying :/ at least the damn railway is... first thing I hear when we arrived was that the Dutch railway is on strike. At least David was there to pick us up, so that wasn't too bad. And maybe it was because of the strike, but the traffic sucks too. The place looks lovely though, even if somewhat grey and cold. The hotel we stayed at, Bastion Hotel in Leiden, was pretty nice. It was definitely warm and cosy, and the staff were helpful and friendly. One nice thing in Holland is that they have chocolates and other yummy stuff at the reception instead of just cheap sweets like in Singapore.Poor Jeroen waited for us 2 hours in the cold because we took longer than we should to get to the hotel from the airport (damn traffic) and to den Haag. He wasn't very pleased to wait that long but he didnt bitch about it or anything. Then we made the two guys walk all around Leiden central with us because we couldn't decide where to eat. Their traffic is confusing!! Michelle and I were kinda lost as to when would be a good time to cross the road and the guys just crossed over without thinking about it, leaving the two of us still on this side. We were like.. eep!! and Jeroen crossed back and helped us. That was pretty embarrassing, but I swear, they have like bus lanes and bicycle lanes and all that stuff, it looks rather scary at first.We had some turkish sorta food... seems there's nothing much to eat there 'cept hard bread, disgusting processed meat and cold stuff (thatz michelle's opinion mostly) and the fast food are horribly expensive.. like $2+ for a cheeseburger at McDonald's?!!? They even charge you for sauces!! (will be more appreciative of the fast food in Singapore)Visited Jeroen's place.. definitely male. You know what I mean. PC freak too, it seems.. alot of cds and movies in neat stacks though.David's brother wasn't too happy that he kept the car out so late so we had to go, and he could return it. It was like 7+pm when we got back to the hotel room but we fell asleep pretty fast that night.

I wonder i...

I wonder if I am being paranoid? Cos I think there is a conspiracy against me by the flu bug. I never get sick when I am working 7 days in a row.. but I always get sick on my OFF DAYS, espectially the 3 off days in a row periods that we have.. and I always get sick during vacation or when I am about to go for vacation. WHAT IS THIS!?!? *mutters* There is also another conspiracy by my company against me too... I always get the lousiest roster.. scheduled to go home at 10pm, given a flight to do at 10.40pm. The other time I changed shift with someone, and her schedule was terrific, her flight was at 8.30pm, and she was given last hour break, meaning she can finish up her things and go home by 9pm.. wasn't it a wonderful deal? Just when I thought I was sooooooooo bloody lucky to have changed shift with her and given this schedule.. the bloody flight was delayed for almost 2 hours!!! Which mean I went home LATE and didn't get my break even!Yesterday, MY flight again, was delayed 2 hours, and it was such a full flight, 374 passengers, and they were tired of waiting, so they kept walking in and out of the boarding gate,.. and I had to keep track of all of them.. and then some of them were plain bloody rude, as if I was responsible for the flight delay.. and I have this mother of all headaches, which really was bad... I even got an MC today because of it. Seems there's a flu bug going around... and I am leaving for Europe tomorrow... I TOLD YOU THERE IS A CONSPIRACY AGAINST ME!!Bugger!

I think t...

I think there's a conspiracy by the internet against me.. everytime the browser or icq or msn or SOMETHING will screw up on me.. even livejournal does it.. *($@$^#%! Anyway... bah!I haven't written much in days.. why? Cos 1. I have a boring life.. the most exciting thing that I might talk about is work (*freaks out*) 2. I get so tired from work that I hardly have energy to do anything else. There was this period of time when my friend would ask how I was feeling and each time the reply was "good, but tired" and I start to wonder why he even bothered asking still.Anyway today I took TWO naps... imagine that! Elaine asked if I wanted to join her and Roger this afternoon and I said ok (I woke up at 5am btw) but later she had to change plans cos of some family thingy that I didn't bother to try understand when she told it to me cos I was like half stoned then.Had some problems at work yesterday.. did some change of seats so this two English couple could sit together and the woman whose seat I moved was upset about it and made such alot of noise that they had to upgrade her to pacify her. Of course that caused me big trouble cos they have to explain why they upgraded her and her friend etc so I have to write a report.. a black mark on the record.. fucking bitches! It really doesn't pay to try so hard sometimes.. should be more like my mentor, just tell them they can't have seats together and leave it to the officer to do something about it. No point trying so hard to help them then get myself into trouble... bullshit :(Mark looked for me today... *sighs* I feel we have drifted apart.. so I'm not too sure anymore if we should meet when I go to the states.. but it's like, if we don't now, the next chance won't be anytime soon.. and I don't want to regret it after I get back to Singapore.. so I guess I will...?Sometimes I really have no idea what I want.But I love this song.. bloody romantic.. I'll probbaly melt into an unrecognizable puddle of goo if the guy I love get this song played during a romantic date... *drools*

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OOOooooooooooo... change of plans.. now I am gonna go to Brussels for 3 days and one of those days we will pop over to Paris.. wheeee!! Can't believe I am really going to Europe!! I think I need to bring an extra large bib for the men I am gonna drool over while in Europe...!!Aeda sent me some pics today.. of them in a castle.. omg the grass is soooooooooo greeeen!!! I bet Belgium has beautiful countryside.. argh.. I cant wait to go.. we are gonna have a smashing time!! *bings*Paris.. I hear itz selly but recently i met so many cute French guys at work.. I cant wait!! hehehehe :P~~~

A story at work...

Ooooh important note.. I got my confirmation!! for my job! I am no longer on probation!!! wheeeeeeee!!! This calls for a celebration~ *kisses whoever is glad for her*This asshole pax came to the counter demanding an aisle seat.. told him all the seats are pre-assigned cos the flight is over booked so they did a pre-seating thingy.. he said "I don't need you to tell me what your procedure is, your attitude is bad" He kinda like flaunted his KrisFlyer elite gold card and asked what good this card is for when he can't even get the seat he wants. Told him we can only do that if we had his request cos else we wouldnt know his preference.. and he was like, "I am making the request now" Pointed out to him that we already have pre-assigned seats to the passengers, and he asked why we couldn't bump someone else off for him.. for fark's sake he was not even a Piority Passenger!! I was like, no sir, it will be unfair to the other passenger to do it.. and he said it was unfair (UNFAIR?!?!?!) to him!?!??!? I decided to ignore him then and my friend came back then (she went to check with the officer to see if we could squeeze a seat out for him) and I informed him that she managed to get him an aisle seat but it will be at the back of the plane. The bloody *BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP* ignored me with this yaya face and took his boarding pass. Then he said "You are just a trainee, no wonder" and SNORTED, and then he said "I think you need to go back to training, to work on your PR skills" In my mind I was thinking he needs to go back to kindergarten to learn not to behave like a damn kid with a tantrum. I didn't say anything though, smiled and wished him a pleasant flight (hez just trying to get me upset so I will be rude, cos so far I havent been, and then he will have something against me) and said thanks and GOODBYE (this was more like a dismiss to him). And he said I better go look for a new job *PUI!* and when I still smiled and nodded at him, he asked me for my name, I smiled and told him, and even showed him my name tag. I think he went away upset that he couldnt piss me off.. some men are just such assholes.. and just so you all know.. in his records on our computer, he asked for a WINDOW seat, which is what the sucker got in the first place.. so I printed out the records and wrote a report.. if he ever wrote in to complain, he will only be embarrassing himself cos hez the bloody asshole who was purposely looking for fault to pick. My friend agrees and says that all along I have never once been rude, just have been telling him how things work and why he couldn't get the seat. So I have a witness too.Leg cramps for all their flights to all cheapskate passengers who go on economy class and act like first class passengers!

Stupid Singa...

Stupid Singapore Airlines is fully booked to Amsterdam... arrgh I can't believe it!!! *pouts* they are putting me on waitlist.. me and my friend Michelle who is going with me.. We have another booking on Malaysia Airlines that is confirmed seats.. but we are still holding out for SQ. (i mean, obviously)Applied for leave today.. >.< what if itz not approved!?!? howwwwwwww?!?! Then I can forget about taking pics of prettttty tulips... and no visiting the Grand Place in Brussels and I can't visit Jennifer and her lovely kids in Ohio.. *looks pessimistic*work work work... oooh saw a gorgeous french guy the other nite doing SQ334.. wearing designer-type glasses, dark hair, cleft in chin, tall, good body.. intelligent looking *droooools* I think next time I am going to France (even though I hear it's smelly)I miss burbur.. shez always so busy :( (oops that reminds me, I havent gotten her a present still :P )Ashton Kutcher's cute.. I think I am developing a thing for guys with a cleft in the chin.. mmmm :D~

Just ...

Just came back a while ago from a date and had a shower. Hmm.. was a pretty nice date.. went to a nice little japanese restaurant and had a couple of drinks after that. The guy's kinda cute, although he does look a little younger than his age.. oh well, I always liked the boyish look.He asked me out again, I said ok.. a movie this time.. but alas, I dont have an off day for another 9 days at least now. Maybe if I am up to it after work one of the days next week. Told babyfire her present would be late.. she understands of course.. anyway she has no time to meet me *mutters* Hope to meet her next week...I streaked my hair.. now it has coppery gold streaks in it.. haha.. ick.. but this L'Oreal product is pretty good.. I will use L'Oreal again in future.MingMing and I are talking about Paul... saying how weird he is sometimes and how he always changes his mind about meeting me.. she thinks hez has a phobia about people and that I should forget about him. I agree.. hez not worth the frustration he brings sometimes. Too bad this friendship has to come to this.

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Period came!! YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!*phew* tomorrow I can go to the doc to get pills.. I hope it wont be too much of a chore..Saw my friend Kris online today.. he's someone I usually talk to when we meet online.. he's a very funny guy and I enjoy talking to him. Hell, today he pissed me off cos he was very very rudely ignoring my messages.. even someone talking to him pointed out that I was talking to him and he ignored it all.. that was really some kind of attitude.. asked him if anything was wrong, and he said no.. then he said he was just tired.. but he was talking to this dude very very animatedly.. geez, always suspected he was gay.. Anyway, it really hurt my feelings when someone you consider a friend treats ya like that.. shitty :( I'm hurt as hell..Watched Dude, where's my car? today.. hilarious brainless kinda movie but totally cool.. Ashton Kutcher is soooooooooooo cute!! Damn, why can't I meet men like that?!? Oh, maybe cause I dont live where there are plenty of cute caucasian men.. sighhhh!!!Anyway I have a date tomorrow.. with this australian guy.. kinda apprehensive.. but we'll see what happens..got new shoes today for work... $82!! sigh.. I think I love work too much nowadays!!Decided to go to Amsterdam then US in April/May.. :) Can't wait to jet off again!! :)Kris is a jerk still.. that was really mean of him.. totally rude.. :( Sometimes I think he doesnt even think of me as a friend worth respecting.. :(Cant find babyfire's bday present.. will try again tomorrow.

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Babyfire.. humppppphhh... told me she would go out with me tomorrow... and now she tells me she has to stay home cos her aunt.. HER AUNT.. is going over to help celebrate birthday... waaaaaaaahh!!!! &()@^#%^#^%$)(* humppppphhhh~!!! I already booked tickets for a movie tomorrow!! Where the heck am I gonna find another person to go to the movie with?!?! whereeeeeeeeeee?!?!? *throws babyfire's bday present down the rubbish chute* there you go!!!!! *snickers* but I will be nice and leave her the powerpuff girls stuffed toys I bought from Hong Kong.. *looks gracious* Maybe I will let her live too... until after her birthday at least.Alrighty... thatz it for now..

Went to...

Went to the doctor yesterday.. MALE! sheesh... they never ask if you want female doctors anymore. Anyway he asked me whatz wrong, and I dont know if I blushed or not but I managed to tell him I just wanted to get birth control pills (oh so casually).. and he told me I need to go see the midwife.So I went to see the midwife.. *faints* she looks like the conservative auntie next door. Told her I wanted to get pills and she asked if I were married.. I said no, and she asked "then what are you?" I was like.. "Huh?" I mean, sheesh, what can I answer? "Living in sin."??? Anyway, she said she can only sell it to me if I am having my period.. so I didnt get what I needed. *pouts* She did ask if I wanna buy some condoms instead though.. roflWhy is it that we see so many cute brits on TV but I never met any irl.. except for H whom I met in HK.. *drools over the memory of that sexy accent*.. I think I should take a trip to the UK then.. I just decided to stop by Amsterdam on the way to the US.. meet up with Dave.. hope he doesnt read it wrongly.. he has been saying some things like how he regrets not cherishing our closeness before, and how he miss me and enjoy being together in the past.. all I want is to see the tulips!!!!!!! Gotta watch out for the drugs peddlers too.. *snickers*I'm a geek too just like babyfire.. I spent my last off day at home on the internet! No wonder my butt's getting bigger *growls* Oh well, next off day I think I'll bring my mom to high tea and the one after that I think I have a date with this aussie guy living in Singapore.. wonder if babyfire wants to come along.. probably not, shez such a snob :P

first journal entry

Hmmm something new to do while on the net now. Thanks to miss babyfire *grins* who always somehow manage to find new and interesting to do on the web... maybe I ought to check what search engine she uses? On my day off and nothing to do.. this sucks. I think I am turning weird cos I have been thinking about how much more enjoyable work is compared to having a day off.. eep! I need help! Gonna be having a long weekend off in 2 weeks, still not sure what to do.. don't want to end up stuck at home again. Maybe I will go to Hong Kong again.. I sure miss that place and need to buy MORE cheap stuff.. more watches and more imitation Prada wallets for my friends :PNeed to make more friends and go out more.. but I'm just so lazy sometimes... *sighs* Mom gave me her cold too.. *sniffles* on my day off too. Busy day tomorrow.. need to get my handphone back from the repair shop *grr* and see the doctor.. Must sleep earlier tonight... maybe 9pm since I have to get up at 4am to get ready for work. I hope they don't give me the full and horribly difficult flights to handle. Pity me! God, please send more cute men to my counter so I won't die from boredom looking at uninteresting passengers...!! Bad mynthe *slaps herself*, be nice..Alright, enough rambling.. will write more tomorrow.