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Sometimes I think men have this time-bomb thing built inside them that goes off when they hear the phrase "I love you". Maybe itz just me but thatz how I feel.I'm definitely very very fond of Jeroen but I don't know where things are going. He said something one night about how he seems to keep getting involved into long-distance relationships... I wonder if that means hez finding himself into a relationship with me? *hopes* The things he said, they set my heart going pitter-patter. Once he was getting a little frustrated 'cos he could tell I felt he was just toying with me, or just having a fling, and he said very seriously that I need to trust him on that when he says something, he means it. He added too that he never plays with anyone's feelings and he doesn't fake his feelings either.Just the night before I left for Cincinnati he said "You have no idea how special you are to me."I'm really not sure about his feelings on this but I know I really really would like to see the two of us getting somewhere.The night before I left for Ohio, I went to Den Haag to get my air tickets from David and I was stuck there cos there was no trains going back to Rotterdam from Den Haag (damn strike AGAIN!!!!), and David told me there was a bus going back to Rotterdam, so I thought I would be fine. The bus was scheduled at 2355 and David's bus came first so I told him to go ahead and that I would be fine. Unfortunately it turned out that the blasted bus was going THE OTHER WAY, away from Rotterdam!!!I called Jeroen and he fels to bad about it.. he wanted to come over to Den Haag to get me and I told him not to, cos that would mean he had to get a cab and it will probably make him broke. He sounded so sorry and kept apologising for not coming with me (he was lazy and didn't want to come with me since he knew I knew how to get around between his place and Den Haag train station but he forgot that there was going to be a strike).Luckily there was this train going to Rotterdam and he promised to be at the station to wait for me. Then I met this Greek guy who was visiting his brother in Holland and he won't leave me alone. Came and sat beside me on the train and he was sitting sooooo damn close his leg was resting against mine. I didn't wanna be rude or anything, or acted like he was trying to molest me on purpose, so I didn't say anything. He talked to me some and asked me where I came from, what I was doing in Holland and if I have a phone number there (I think he was trying to pick me up) etc etc.Luckily Jeroen was waiting for me at the station as promised so I waved Mr Greek byebye and went over to my sweetie. He was so sweet, hugged me and snuggled with me and apologized again for not going with me to Den Haag even though it really was my fault for procastinating the trip. Love it when he does that nose-rubbing nuzzling thing with me. *melts*The next day, which was the day I left for Ohio, I was really pissed because he couldn't get up, and I thought I was going to have to go to the airport by myself, and I didn't want to cos he promised he would go with me. I didn't want to leave with him sleeping and feeling alone going off.. and I know he was really really tired and I was really frustrated about it. We got into some kinda temper-fight with each other when he finally woke up. I was crying and he hugged me tight and asked me what was wrong, but I was so mad I didn't want to talk to him. He got really frustrated because he couldn't understand why I was so upset so he kinda lost his temper and ignored me for a while.Finally, I talked to him and told him I was pissed because he promised to go to the airport with me and it seems like he couldn't make it and I can't change my flight cos of some ticket limitation, which means if I missed this flight I can't go to Ohio anymore. He started to go back into the room to get packed and I was like "no I don't want you to go with me if you don't want to, I don't want you to do it cos you are forced" and he kinda held me by the shoulders very very gently and said that he wanted to do it, because he would like to be able to say bye to me at the airport instead of having me go alone. Then he held me and kissed my hair and told me he was sorry that he almost screwed it up. I started crying again because that was probably the sweetest thing I ever heard from a guy.We made it to the airport on time, and I kissed him byebye and he promised he won't flirt with anyone while he was in Spain because he already had me and that was all he needed. I threatened to give him a hickey before to warn the girls that he was taken and he told me he doesn't need a hickey to remember that he was already taken. He also said once before, to my new teddy bear (no hez not crazy.. I will explain about the bear some time later), that I belong to him. It was probably something that he said without thinking, but you know how I am.. it's something that I will ponder over and think about for a long time.I'm confused. I wish I could read his mind. Missed him. He calls me "my lil' freezer" because he is my "lil personal heater" He said he missed me :) Good sign, I think.