Ohio just ...

Ohio just turned cold.I miss Jeroen *sobs*.. I feel cold without him to snuggle up to. Lauren (Jennifer's little girl) loves to snuggle up to me, and I felt a little sad cos with Lauren I am the "bigger" half, the one thatz taking care of the other, but I wanna be with Jeroen because with him he's the bigger half, the one babying me. I don't wanna baby someone.. I wanna be babied! *pouts*We went visiting Jen's grandparents and Joe's parents todya cos it was Easter. They were really nice people. Jen's mom taught me how to make deviled eggs.. yummy! Gonna make some for my honey when I get back to Holland. I also planned to buy some instant noodles and other stuff to buy back so I won't starve there or anything.. can you imagine their pizza delivery in Holland starts at 4pm?!?!? Hello?? Not all lazy people wakes up after 4 ya know? I definitely need to buy food for the flight back home to cos the bloody airline food that NW serves is SUCKY!! I mean, seriously!! They serve ya VEGETARIAN pizza and slimey curry with vegetables that you couldn't distinguish on the flight coming to Ohio.. I am just dying with excitement to see what they will serve going back to Amsterdam.My sweetie's so nice.. he promised to stay up all night cos he knows he wont be able to wake up before 7am if he were to sleep cos my flight's arriving at 7.20am. He swears I am trying to kill him or something :P since I changed from a 11.20am arrival time flight to a 7.20am one.. He knows though I changed my flight so I can see him sooner and spend more time with him so he didn't really complain, knowing if he did I would get sensitive and accuse him of not wanting to see me :P Hez pretty smart for a guy. *grins*Tomorrow he will be back in Holland from Spain, so maybe I will be able to catch him online more. Caught him online today for a while.. was so happy. He was tired because the sun was making him lazy and sleepy and he went for a siesta soon after.. but it still made me happy to talk to him for a bit.Tomorrow we are going to the zoo, Jen, Joe, the kids and I. I hope we get some nice pictures. Should be fun.. hopefully Lauren will be in a good mood so she doesn't get all cranky and starts screaming (will probably scare all the animals off). Then we are gonna come back and order pizza and just pig out *beams* I think I am gonna put on weight before going back to Holland.. but thatz okie, just have to get Jeroen to help me get more "exercise" done *evil grin*.Tuesday I will cook for the family.. gotta check the damn bak kut teh thingy and see what I need to buy cos we will have to go to the store to get my food supply and the ingredients for the thing I am gonna cook for them. Maybe we can bring some over to Jen's grandparents... they were really nice :)Wed I go back to Holland!!!!! Back into my baby's arms!! For some reason I keep getting this image of him meeting me at the airport with a girl and saying that this was his last gf and he decided to get back together with her, or he met some girl in Spain and brought her back to Holland to live happily ever after with him. I think I AM being paranoid.The thing with the ex-gf.. he and her officially broke up like a week before I got there. Before that she went to Sweden for studies I think and they kept up a long-distance thingy but then she decided to end it. I dunno if he was ok about it all along or was he on some rebound or is he just looking for some comfort in somebody? Cos before they were officially off he told me about her and said that he wouldnt cheat on her or anything even though they weren't like really together already because he would feel weird about it. Maybe this is also why I am so doubtful about his feelings, because he seems to be a faithful person and he seemed to care about that relationship but it didnt end long before we met, and I don't know if I meant anything to him at all. I don't know either if I should ask him about it. I do care about him alot but I don't want to push him off or anything and I don't want to assume anything either. Argh.Whatever it is I am gonna cherish the 5 days I will have with him and make sure they are happy memorable ones because he's definitely the most wonderful guy I know.