You know I st...

You know I still can't get over how anyone, especially his last gf, would let go of someone as sweet and special as Jeroen. Amazing.And I am thinking everyday to myself what good timing I have, or else he would surely have been snapped up soon by someone else.

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Extract from online weather service:... Freeze Warning For Tonight Remains IN Effect... Cold Canadian Air Will Continue To Push Into The Ohio Valley Overnight. Temperatures Will Drop Into The Lower 30s Tonight... Bloody heck!!! I am gonna wear my sweaters and jeans to sleep or something. *whines* last week they had LOVELY weather, and this week, because I am here, the temperature is gonna go to freezing point!?!??!?! You might as well snow me in!! Geez.. I told ya therez a conspiracy!! I am getting goosebumps as I type too *whines some more*

Ohio just ...

Ohio just turned cold.I miss Jeroen *sobs*.. I feel cold without him to snuggle up to. Lauren (Jennifer's little girl) loves to snuggle up to me, and I felt a little sad cos with Lauren I am the "bigger" half, the one thatz taking care of the other, but I wanna be with Jeroen because with him he's the bigger half, the one babying me. I don't wanna baby someone.. I wanna be babied! *pouts*We went visiting Jen's grandparents and Joe's parents todya cos it was Easter. They were really nice people. Jen's mom taught me how to make deviled eggs.. yummy! Gonna make some for my honey when I get back to Holland. I also planned to buy some instant noodles and other stuff to buy back so I won't starve there or anything.. can you imagine their pizza delivery in Holland starts at 4pm?!?!? Hello?? Not all lazy people wakes up after 4 ya know? I definitely need to buy food for the flight back home to cos the bloody airline food that NW serves is SUCKY!! I mean, seriously!! They serve ya VEGETARIAN pizza and slimey curry with vegetables that you couldn't distinguish on the flight coming to Ohio.. I am just dying with excitement to see what they will serve going back to Amsterdam.My sweetie's so nice.. he promised to stay up all night cos he knows he wont be able to wake up before 7am if he were to sleep cos my flight's arriving at 7.20am. He swears I am trying to kill him or something :P since I changed from a 11.20am arrival time flight to a 7.20am one.. He knows though I changed my flight so I can see him sooner and spend more time with him so he didn't really complain, knowing if he did I would get sensitive and accuse him of not wanting to see me :P Hez pretty smart for a guy. *grins*Tomorrow he will be back in Holland from Spain, so maybe I will be able to catch him online more. Caught him online today for a while.. was so happy. He was tired because the sun was making him lazy and sleepy and he went for a siesta soon after.. but it still made me happy to talk to him for a bit.Tomorrow we are going to the zoo, Jen, Joe, the kids and I. I hope we get some nice pictures. Should be fun.. hopefully Lauren will be in a good mood so she doesn't get all cranky and starts screaming (will probably scare all the animals off). Then we are gonna come back and order pizza and just pig out *beams* I think I am gonna put on weight before going back to Holland.. but thatz okie, just have to get Jeroen to help me get more "exercise" done *evil grin*.Tuesday I will cook for the family.. gotta check the damn bak kut teh thingy and see what I need to buy cos we will have to go to the store to get my food supply and the ingredients for the thing I am gonna cook for them. Maybe we can bring some over to Jen's grandparents... they were really nice :)Wed I go back to Holland!!!!! Back into my baby's arms!! For some reason I keep getting this image of him meeting me at the airport with a girl and saying that this was his last gf and he decided to get back together with her, or he met some girl in Spain and brought her back to Holland to live happily ever after with him. I think I AM being paranoid.The thing with the ex-gf.. he and her officially broke up like a week before I got there. Before that she went to Sweden for studies I think and they kept up a long-distance thingy but then she decided to end it. I dunno if he was ok about it all along or was he on some rebound or is he just looking for some comfort in somebody? Cos before they were officially off he told me about her and said that he wouldnt cheat on her or anything even though they weren't like really together already because he would feel weird about it. Maybe this is also why I am so doubtful about his feelings, because he seems to be a faithful person and he seemed to care about that relationship but it didnt end long before we met, and I don't know if I meant anything to him at all. I don't know either if I should ask him about it. I do care about him alot but I don't want to push him off or anything and I don't want to assume anything either. Argh.Whatever it is I am gonna cherish the 5 days I will have with him and make sure they are happy memorable ones because he's definitely the most wonderful guy I know.

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Sometimes I think men have this time-bomb thing built inside them that goes off when they hear the phrase "I love you". Maybe itz just me but thatz how I feel.I'm definitely very very fond of Jeroen but I don't know where things are going. He said something one night about how he seems to keep getting involved into long-distance relationships... I wonder if that means hez finding himself into a relationship with me? *hopes* The things he said, they set my heart going pitter-patter. Once he was getting a little frustrated 'cos he could tell I felt he was just toying with me, or just having a fling, and he said very seriously that I need to trust him on that when he says something, he means it. He added too that he never plays with anyone's feelings and he doesn't fake his feelings either.Just the night before I left for Cincinnati he said "You have no idea how special you are to me."I'm really not sure about his feelings on this but I know I really really would like to see the two of us getting somewhere.The night before I left for Ohio, I went to Den Haag to get my air tickets from David and I was stuck there cos there was no trains going back to Rotterdam from Den Haag (damn strike AGAIN!!!!), and David told me there was a bus going back to Rotterdam, so I thought I would be fine. The bus was scheduled at 2355 and David's bus came first so I told him to go ahead and that I would be fine. Unfortunately it turned out that the blasted bus was going THE OTHER WAY, away from Rotterdam!!!I called Jeroen and he fels to bad about it.. he wanted to come over to Den Haag to get me and I told him not to, cos that would mean he had to get a cab and it will probably make him broke. He sounded so sorry and kept apologising for not coming with me (he was lazy and didn't want to come with me since he knew I knew how to get around between his place and Den Haag train station but he forgot that there was going to be a strike).Luckily there was this train going to Rotterdam and he promised to be at the station to wait for me. Then I met this Greek guy who was visiting his brother in Holland and he won't leave me alone. Came and sat beside me on the train and he was sitting sooooo damn close his leg was resting against mine. I didn't wanna be rude or anything, or acted like he was trying to molest me on purpose, so I didn't say anything. He talked to me some and asked me where I came from, what I was doing in Holland and if I have a phone number there (I think he was trying to pick me up) etc etc.Luckily Jeroen was waiting for me at the station as promised so I waved Mr Greek byebye and went over to my sweetie. He was so sweet, hugged me and snuggled with me and apologized again for not going with me to Den Haag even though it really was my fault for procastinating the trip. Love it when he does that nose-rubbing nuzzling thing with me. *melts*The next day, which was the day I left for Ohio, I was really pissed because he couldn't get up, and I thought I was going to have to go to the airport by myself, and I didn't want to cos he promised he would go with me. I didn't want to leave with him sleeping and feeling alone going off.. and I know he was really really tired and I was really frustrated about it. We got into some kinda temper-fight with each other when he finally woke up. I was crying and he hugged me tight and asked me what was wrong, but I was so mad I didn't want to talk to him. He got really frustrated because he couldn't understand why I was so upset so he kinda lost his temper and ignored me for a while.Finally, I talked to him and told him I was pissed because he promised to go to the airport with me and it seems like he couldn't make it and I can't change my flight cos of some ticket limitation, which means if I missed this flight I can't go to Ohio anymore. He started to go back into the room to get packed and I was like "no I don't want you to go with me if you don't want to, I don't want you to do it cos you are forced" and he kinda held me by the shoulders very very gently and said that he wanted to do it, because he would like to be able to say bye to me at the airport instead of having me go alone. Then he held me and kissed my hair and told me he was sorry that he almost screwed it up. I started crying again because that was probably the sweetest thing I ever heard from a guy.We made it to the airport on time, and I kissed him byebye and he promised he won't flirt with anyone while he was in Spain because he already had me and that was all he needed. I threatened to give him a hickey before to warn the girls that he was taken and he told me he doesn't need a hickey to remember that he was already taken. He also said once before, to my new teddy bear (no hez not crazy.. I will explain about the bear some time later), that I belong to him. It was probably something that he said without thinking, but you know how I am.. it's something that I will ponder over and think about for a long time.I'm confused. I wish I could read his mind. Missed him. He calls me "my lil' freezer" because he is my "lil personal heater" He said he missed me :) Good sign, I think.

Madurodam, ...

Madurodam, thatz what it is... it has all the famous sights of Holland in minature replicas. I have pictures!! :)

Jero...

Jeroen and I started holding hands walking around when we go out. He has nice warm big hands and his coat has big pockets that fit both our hands together in them as we stroll around in the cold at the whateveryoucallitplace. I'll find the name and fill it in some time later, can't spell the blasted thing now.Maybe I am biased but I think hez soooo cute.

Jeroen'...

Jeroen's birthday! Happy Birthday! We went to visit David's mom.. she's pretty sweet, and funny to talk to. Kinda funny that David turns out so shy and strange in a way?She bought us Holland chocolates awwww!! *beams* it even has a tile with a picture of a windmill!Got my air tickets to Cincinnati too.. had to change my flight back to Singapore for that, which means I have to go back straight to work on the day I return *groans* I guess I will most likely end up getting a MC for it.The thing with Jeroen is, the longer you look at him and spend time with him, the cuter and nicer you find him. We had dinner.. I wanted to go somewhere nice for dinner but it was pretty late by the time we met up with him (no thanks to the bloody strike on the Dutch railway) so we had to settle for some slimey snack bar food.After that, we went to this bar and had some drinks.. pretty nice bar, but bloody cold weather. So Michelle order some alcoholic drink since it was so cold outside... I told Jeroen to get her bailey's but he screwed up the order :P and got her barcardi breezer instead.. duh. We let Michelle take a puff of smoke and she did the thing that first timers always do, hold the smoke in the mouth and blow it out again. Which is good for her that shez such a failure at that, rofl.We walked back to the car, and it was even more bloody cold than I remembered. My cheeks and hands were all cold by the time we got into the car. Jeroen let me snuggle up with him and warmed my hands up with his, which was very nice and kinda like rested his chin on my head.. very cosy ;) *beams* There is actually a good thing about the cold I guess *giggles*He stayed over at the hotel cos it was so late and the trains weren't running properly, so it was easier to stay over, which he did. We called Gwyndolyn up on my handphone (geez I cant wait to see the bill) and then went to sleep. He slept on the floor, which was cold, so I gave him my covers, but it turned cold in the middle of the night (seems the Dutch have a habit of switching the heat off at some point because they assume you will be nice and cosy under the covers by then) so I kinda woke up cold. We fought a while over the covers, trying to make the other take it before we finally gave up and fell asleep again.

The flight to...

The flight to Amsterdam was pretty nice, not much turbulence cos the damn plane was so full. Michelle finds it hard to sleep cos it's so crammed and shez not even 5 feet.. can you imagine all these big Dutch people trying to get comfortable? I felt sorry for this big Dutch man seated across the aisle from me. The lady in front of him had her seat reclined all the way back that he didn't have any place to put his legs comfortably, had to like squash them right down to stretch them out more. I felt so bad for him :(Had a horrible headache at the start of the flight and wanted to take my medication and sleep but they were sooooo slow in serving the food.. *sighs* And after eating, I didn't have water anymore, so I tried pressing the call button to get someone to bring me a cup of it, but nobody came.. finally I got really pissed and went to get it for myself. The guy who gave me the water said that wasn't his area that I was sitting at, so he didn't come and serve me. I am like, duh, what kinda bloody service is this!?!? No wonder MH isn't as good as SQ. But the stewardess who was supposed to serve me came back to me and apologized for not coming because the light didn't go on above my head so she couldn't tell who it was that called. She was pretty nice about it (and I was partly sedated from the medication) so I just let it go. (yes I was mentally writing a letter of complaint all this while)Holland is cold. And annoying :/ at least the damn railway is... first thing I hear when we arrived was that the Dutch railway is on strike. At least David was there to pick us up, so that wasn't too bad. And maybe it was because of the strike, but the traffic sucks too. The place looks lovely though, even if somewhat grey and cold. The hotel we stayed at, Bastion Hotel in Leiden, was pretty nice. It was definitely warm and cosy, and the staff were helpful and friendly. One nice thing in Holland is that they have chocolates and other yummy stuff at the reception instead of just cheap sweets like in Singapore.Poor Jeroen waited for us 2 hours in the cold because we took longer than we should to get to the hotel from the airport (damn traffic) and to den Haag. He wasn't very pleased to wait that long but he didnt bitch about it or anything. Then we made the two guys walk all around Leiden central with us because we couldn't decide where to eat. Their traffic is confusing!! Michelle and I were kinda lost as to when would be a good time to cross the road and the guys just crossed over without thinking about it, leaving the two of us still on this side. We were like.. eep!! and Jeroen crossed back and helped us. That was pretty embarrassing, but I swear, they have like bus lanes and bicycle lanes and all that stuff, it looks rather scary at first.We had some turkish sorta food... seems there's nothing much to eat there 'cept hard bread, disgusting processed meat and cold stuff (thatz michelle's opinion mostly) and the fast food are horribly expensive.. like $2+ for a cheeseburger at McDonald's?!!? They even charge you for sauces!! (will be more appreciative of the fast food in Singapore)Visited Jeroen's place.. definitely male. You know what I mean. PC freak too, it seems.. alot of cds and movies in neat stacks though.David's brother wasn't too happy that he kept the car out so late so we had to go, and he could return it. It was like 7+pm when we got back to the hotel room but we fell asleep pretty fast that night.